3:27:15AM
Friday, 4/26/2002

Father… hear my cry, for once again there is none but you who is there. God I’m so sorry, but now I see clearly what my actions mean. I pray for her God, I pray you would intercede and make it so she doesn’t have to be strong anymore. I pray that she would not have to be strong for our sakes; I pray she would not have to cry alone and sacrifice… God make me strong; make me powerful so I can bear all of her burdens. I feel the knifes of conviction and I see clear that my laziness means betrayal!! I would not betray her! Not after all she has sacrificed for me just so she could see me fly! I will have her proud of me! She would think of me with pride each moment and I would repay in that only way I can! God I will not be silent! I REFUSE to be silent! Oh God let me not forget! Help me be faithful to this promise and be faithful to the only person in this world that has been faithful to me all along…. Yes God… let this conviction last forever… whenever I want to fall or sleep somehow remind me of this... remind me the duties I have. I will be there for her and never leave her side… I promise. Kill me if I back out on my word. Bring her peace and joy God… let her rest… meet her! Do the impossible things to her… Here I make my vow… I will dance for her… I’m the only person in the world who understands just how much she has given up… how great this sacrifice has been… Even when the world leave you I will be by your side.. I will never, ever, leave you… You are.. the most important person in my life… without you I am nothing… I thank God for you, you are the most perfect Gift… a thousand thanks wouldn’t do… my mother…