1:02:45AM
Thursday, 5/2/2002

It’s amazing how some people can be so ungrateful. I know I shouldn’t expect people to remember what I did for them, but they shouldn’t forget either. I try to live like Him and just do good to others without expecting anything in return, but still I can’t help getting hurt when they don’t even appreciate it. Regardless! Life is good and I am grateful of everything that’s happening around me.

So the whole living situation turned around in 1 night. I’m now looking at an exciting summer with my best buddies… Was it you God? If it was, thank you… If it wasn’t, thank you anyway :)

Life is so rich! I am seriously one of the luckiest people alive. Maybe it’s because I suffered so much when I was young and now my time has come… who knows? My heart has been going out to homeless people these days… I watched a video in class and this homeless back lady was crying, she was crying, “ain’t nobody care ‘bout this woman man… ain’t nobody care!” There was so much bitterness in her tears, and so much pain and hatred in her eyes… I wish I can help her, I wish I can change her life and make her happy… but I never will.

I’d do just about anything to change lives… And surprisingly I think part of that actually comes from my own insecurities… weird eh? Everything seems to be rooted in my insecurities these days. I wish I could fly, I believe I can! I want to touch lives… I want to make people happy and I want to bring out the best of people… motivation, inspiration, and strength…

That’s why I have to be great.